Remembering
My only son Johnny

Born on a Sunday in February of 1989, you were an incredibly talented, beautiful, sweet soul and I am so beyond blessed to be your mother. This is for you, my only son Johnny. 

   I don't even know where to begin, your loss left me so heartbroken but I hold on to all of the wonderful memories I cherish of you from the moment you were born. I can't measure how much I miss you every second of every day. I miss your voice, hearing you say "hey momma," and "I love you mom," and I miss hugging you and telling you that I love you so much. I miss seeing your huge smile, hearing you sing, play your drums, guitar, and your piano. You were so talented and there was always music around our family when you were here. Because of my faith in God, I know that I will see you again. "For God so loved the world, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16 

  You encouraged me to go back to college in 2013 to get my Bachelor's Degree in Fine Arts / Drawing, and you were there when I graduated. You told me I should do it and not to wait. You brought me flowers to my graduation and wrote "I love you dearly and I'm so proud of you for pursuing your dreams and turning your goals into reality, you never cease to inspire me mom." 

But it was you that inspired me Johnny. You encouraged me, attended my art shows, and were always there for me showing your love to your sisters and I. I know that you are in heaven and that it is so beautiful and the music is beyond anything on earth there, and I'm sure your playing too. It is still so hard to miss you so much and every moment and I wish you were still here with me and all of us whom love you so much. Remember "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be,"? You loved that little book so much, and I loved reading it to you. 

I know you wouldn't want me to be so sad and miss you all of the time, you would want me to be okay. You would want your sisters and your little boy and girl to be okay. You were such a special person with a wonderful smile and everyone that knew you loved you. I can still see you so clearly as my little boy that loved life so much and I know how blessed I am that God chose me to be your mother. I am so grateful for every moment, every second I had with you during your 33 years here, and I will always love and miss you so much always.

                                Mom